review again and again

盲评结果出来了。然而对于我并没有太大的影响。从头到尾我没有紧张过，自然也不会有如释重负的感觉。

昨天说了事情要提前做准备。早上，到教研室挺早，review的时候，发现论文中一个关于目录的小问题，解决掉之后，便开始写信。因为大家等待盲评结果的焦急心情，也不能让我平静。下午，在一个免费的查重网站上查了绪论，我以为上次修改已经很接近于最终版本了，现在看来，还是有很多处要改，review果然是有用的，写作也是。下午，便开始根据查重报告修改论文。我认为写论文，里面的语言都要是自己基于自己的认识总结出的话，也就是基于深入研究后自己归纳总结的认知。虽然我还是更倾向于抄现有的答案，也许潜意识里觉得别人是对的。我一直在学习，学习别人的经验，没有自己独立解决问题的习惯。自己写出来的东西，总觉得是没有根据，没有底气。现在看来，一遍就写的很好是不实际的，不断的认知，不断的review，是一个不断接近真理的过程，永远不会停止。照这个逻辑，抄别人是很不负责任的。这不是我的观点，我没有这样说，错了也与我无关。

收集了很多论文，很多资料，但不整理，不思考，不找出问题解决，不积累，并不能真正有所收获，并不算真正拥有。晚上，去跑步了，感觉很好。就像写东西一样，每天都写一些东西，这样感觉很好!

今天有收到师弟师妹们给的吃的，我想礼尚往来，是很好的交流方式！

Blind evaluation results came out. But it doesn't make much difference to me. I am not from A to Z nervous, nature also won't have the feeling of relief.
Yesterday said things should be prepared in advance. In the morning, to the teaching and research room very early, review, found in the paper a small problem on the directory, after solving, began to write. Because everyone waiting for the blind results of the anxious mood, can not let me calm. Afternoon, in a free check site on the introduction of the review, I thought the last revision has been very close to the final version, and now it seems, there are still many places to change, review is indeed useful, writing is also. In the afternoon, they began to modify papers according to the report. I think writing papers, the language inside are based on their own understanding of the summary of the words, which is based on in-depth study of their own cognitive. Although I still prefer to copy the existing answer, perhaps subconsciously think others are right. I have been learning, learning the experience of others, not their own independent problem-solving habits. Write their own things, always feel there is no light, no confidence. Now it seems that writing again is not practical, constantly cognitive, continuous review, this is a process of approaching truth, but never stop. According to this logic, copying others is very irresponsible. This is not my point of view, I did not say so, wrong also has nothing to do with me.
Collected a lot of papers, a lot of information, but do not organize, do not think, do not find the problem solving, not accumulation, and can not really harvest, not really owned. In the evening, to run, feel good. Like writing something, writing something every day, it feels good!

Today I has received Shidishimei to eat, I think reciprocity is a good way to communicate!