February 15th, 2018 Week 7th Thursday

Every orientation presupposes a disorientation.

迷失过方向，才能找到方向。

Not until we are lost do we begin to understand ourselves.

By Henry David Thoreau.

Sometimes it seems everything about my future was ambiguously assumed.

Graduated from college with ugly academic records, then starting a career and going through several years with nothing presentable, getting into more and more debt by buying a house, then having a failed marriage, uh, maybe I just have muddled along all these years and achieved nothing.

Being lost in numerous failures, I can't figure out which is the right orientation for me.

I am gradually being brought face to face with the fact that I would have very little success.

I know nothing can be done without hope and confidence, but every time I picked up my courage and hoped for something good, the reality would punch on my face and brought me back to my grim reality.

Uh, maybe I am too pessmistic, maybe in my pointless trials I would finally find out the crack which can help me walk out current bitter fate.

So, don't get stuck in the muck of insecurity and self-doubt, maybe our dreams will become easier to pursue as we keep devoting ourselves to some meaningful things.

Each age has deemed the new-born year. The fittest time for festal cheer.

岁岁皆为新生年，都值得好好庆祝。

From Walter Scott.

Happy Lunar New Year, my darling, my family and my friends, and all of the world, of course, me.

As the new year comes, why not set some goals about life and hope that all will be better in this year?

Yes, we can be different, by trying our best to fulfill some trival expectations day by day.

Forget the unhappy experience of the past year, and enjoy the time with your family.

What about my aims of the near year?

Get married with my lover and have a baby, have some remarkable achivements in my career, uh, if I can become somewhat wiser and wealther, so much the better.